What ever happened to friends with the advice. Wat ever happen to forgivness? I knw i made mistakes & i kne i havent all ways done right. I am soo tired .

all this pain it hurts so bad. Friends i thought i had. I guess i was responsible for wat happen. I juss dnt knw ne more. When did i come to this place? When did i become this person? People dont like me oh well. I never thought of my self scandolous or a damn liar.. At times i wish i could go back in the past and change everything that i done that was wrong. But i cant! I really wish i could. I do love busta... it just hurts how i cant b wat he want me to b. I dnt like staying at home. I cant help it. How do u keep a relationship going wen theres a 4yr differnence? I do like my friendship wit irieon & asia they both r smart & have plans for their lives. i juss dnt even knw wat happen? Nadia ...my best friend.... i wouldnt change her. she has a heart of gold & she a great person. i juss wish i had all the answers the whole list of wat i should do. I dnt knw ne more. im juss so confused among family friends school relationship wat college to apply for wether i should do my homework & hell of alot of stuff. im soo lost is there even a true love out there for me if soo who? Am i gonna b wit busta forever if not how long then if so will we b deeply n love. I need get away..............

Happy NEW YEAR!!!

 It is time for change. I am xcited bout 2006. For all the seniors this year they r one step closer to getting the hell out of skool. Me its closer to my birthdat and my CAR!!! Yes!! i cant wait. 2006 has new meaning 2 me. I dont really hav ne thing to say. I spent the new year eve at church.

Merry Christmas,

My Christmas was okay.  I got the Tammela Mann cd (iam sooo xcited) I got sum sweaters that im taking back to the store monday!!! haha. I got this Hott purse its fye. thats basically it. everything else i knew about i just wraped it so i could have sumthing to open. Well im bout to go to sleep since i was up all night getting things ready haha. all i did was put out a bike and 2 Dora pillows. My sisters dont believe in Santa Clause ne more!! Well ne way talk to ya lata.

Hey... it MEEH!!! I havnt up dated in like uh 4 eva. Man sooo much stuff has happened. I would like to my secret up on here but as usual i always mak a darn promise to not telll and plus people actually read this. But ne way. I cant wait till exam week is over. It always seem nerve  working. but today am i really relaxed i should be studying. Let see to marrow i take Honors Algebra then Biology. Friday i have economics then gym (no biggie cuz ima hav the answers already) Monday spanish and then english 2. well i am bored and i got to go do other stuff.

oh wait did ne one see who won americas next top model??? Oh last week i was wait scratch that i still mad how they gonna choose Nicole over Nik???? Uh hello did we see that for one Nik is pretty and she was very photogentic (how eva u spell it) her signature walk was hott. they stupid. to tell u up front Nicole isnt going to be a popular among viewers. Now Eva & Naima (who were winners) are very succesful! Now Tocarra, Mercadiez, and that girl who going blind (they wasnt winners but also succeful) ne way im done venting. Now im not did u see making the band too? Oh i am soo upset. That band SUCKS!!!!!!!

Hey i havent updated in a while nuthing really has been happening. Only thing hats bothering me now is that i dont feewl as if im getting respected as i should. Like i am sum kind of joke to everybody!!! Oh yea I went to the Madea goes  to jail it wassoooo fun. i am so sleepy that i ha to finish my hmwk and my projects. so ttyl bye